I have been dealing with full body debilitating pain since 2021. It started slow and intense but I could push through. Over the years it has only gotten worse. Every minute is an 8-9 out of 10 on the pain scale and it is only by the grace of God I am still functional. I have been blessed with an amazing bride and helper who makes it possible to move some days. I have also been fortunate that my job has allowed me to continue working from home while only occasionally needing to go in for important in person meetings. On those days I come home and fall apart completely. I received early diagnosis but no actual help until recently and now I am working with a doctor who is willing to try and find out what is wrong as opposed to dismissing things.
I have clung to God through all of this and I am learning to trust in his timing. I have felt reassurance from the Holy Spirit and know I am not alone and find it amazing we get to worship a God who will join us in our struggle and understands it completely.
All that to say, this last week my pain has been higher than ever and the blood tests we have just run could have been run sooner if doctors weren't so dismissive. This frustration has weighed on me heavily and I find myself struggling with bitterness over what could be without even knowing the results yet. I could really use prayer to help me let go of the bitterness and focus on God and the things I can control.
I have a daughter that hasn’t spoken to me in almost five years. She doesn’t want anything to do with me. It’s over my failure in my first marriage. She found out the reasons five years ago. Divorce was 23 years ago. I’ve apologized but she’s cut off almost the entire family including her siblings. Sin has consequences. It’s under the blood but the ramifications continue to ripple.
It is not weighing me down but....seeing so many people speaking when sometimes we/me included ,need to stop, listen to Jesus, are we supposed to speak or just pray and move on. The last few years I am hearing more of "don't speak, pray for them and keep moving forward. So many people have their ears shut to the truth and me just speaking isn't going to open their ears, only God can.
I'm probably going to be let go at my job, Adam. A few of us actually. Likely in the next 90 days. I'm highly skilled, but finding a job in your 50's is tough. There are "many plans in my heart", but I'm trusting that The Lord is guiding me on the path, and I'm just marinating in Isaiah 40:25-31. Man what a passage. God is so AWESOME.
The wear and tear of many years of service. I am strengthened by the Holy Spirit to continue serving but I need Prayer as well to further strengthen me.
Disabled brother who I just moved into a new group home. That he enjoy his new room and housemates. That a new doctor will review his meds and make some adjustments.
My two oldest children went to college and are indoctrinated. They no longer believe in God. I’m trying to gather an army to pray for them.
I am praying for your heart, peace that can only come from Jesus while you pray and wait for their wake up moment to come.
I am blessed. I can't walk like I used to, but thank God I can walk, I have to use a cane sometime.
I have ED, I'm 84 years old, still have desires, and thank God my wife , (I remarried 10 months ago)
is very understanding. I pray each day to be completely healthy. I also pray for patience and
understanding. Thanks for your page.
I have been dealing with full body debilitating pain since 2021. It started slow and intense but I could push through. Over the years it has only gotten worse. Every minute is an 8-9 out of 10 on the pain scale and it is only by the grace of God I am still functional. I have been blessed with an amazing bride and helper who makes it possible to move some days. I have also been fortunate that my job has allowed me to continue working from home while only occasionally needing to go in for important in person meetings. On those days I come home and fall apart completely. I received early diagnosis but no actual help until recently and now I am working with a doctor who is willing to try and find out what is wrong as opposed to dismissing things.
I have clung to God through all of this and I am learning to trust in his timing. I have felt reassurance from the Holy Spirit and know I am not alone and find it amazing we get to worship a God who will join us in our struggle and understands it completely.
All that to say, this last week my pain has been higher than ever and the blood tests we have just run could have been run sooner if doctors weren't so dismissive. This frustration has weighed on me heavily and I find myself struggling with bitterness over what could be without even knowing the results yet. I could really use prayer to help me let go of the bitterness and focus on God and the things I can control.
I have a daughter that hasn’t spoken to me in almost five years. She doesn’t want anything to do with me. It’s over my failure in my first marriage. She found out the reasons five years ago. Divorce was 23 years ago. I’ve apologized but she’s cut off almost the entire family including her siblings. Sin has consequences. It’s under the blood but the ramifications continue to ripple.
It is not weighing me down but....seeing so many people speaking when sometimes we/me included ,need to stop, listen to Jesus, are we supposed to speak or just pray and move on. The last few years I am hearing more of "don't speak, pray for them and keep moving forward. So many people have their ears shut to the truth and me just speaking isn't going to open their ears, only God can.
I struggle with my own pride and discernment.
My empathy comes easy for the lost.
I was that.
It comes easy for those seeking.
It doesn't come easy for the lukewarm or cultural Christians.
The ones raised in the church who put God in a box after service.
Those who mention God in a social media post for the likes but live in ways that do not glorify Him.
I'm probably going to be let go at my job, Adam. A few of us actually. Likely in the next 90 days. I'm highly skilled, but finding a job in your 50's is tough. There are "many plans in my heart", but I'm trusting that The Lord is guiding me on the path, and I'm just marinating in Isaiah 40:25-31. Man what a passage. God is so AWESOME.
The wear and tear of many years of service. I am strengthened by the Holy Spirit to continue serving but I need Prayer as well to further strengthen me.
Disabled brother who I just moved into a new group home. That he enjoy his new room and housemates. That a new doctor will review his meds and make some adjustments.
bitterness of soul